Awesome.

Pure Awesome.

25 facts

1. It is now 12:35 a.m.
2. I can't sleep.
3. I'm making this list out of pure boredom.
4. I am incredibly,ridiculously afraid of spiders.
5. If you were compliment me,my immediate reaction is to deny whatever it is you just said.
6. I'm going to be 16 in eight days and that excites me.
7. I'm going to be a Junior in high school in nine weeks and that scares me.
8. My biggest dream is to get out of Las Vegas.
9. I'm worried I won't be able to accomplish this because my grades are crap and if I don't get out-of-state for college,I'll never get out.
10. I was supposed to do this list as a tag thing back in...a long time ago.
11. I go to church for youth group every Wednesday,but I haven't been to church on Sunday since the week before Christmas.
12. My favourite style of poetry is the sonnet.
13. It is now 12:50 a.m.
14. One of my biggest fears,besides spiders,is that I will have nowhere to go and be stuck.
15. My favourite school assignment was a short story assignment in which we could basically do whatever we wanted.
16. My story was called Games of War.
17. If you haven't already guessed,my favourite word is labyrinthine and my favorite animal is a panda.
18. This is most likely incredibly boring for you.
19. It is now 1:00 a.m.
20. Friends I have never seen in real life know me better than my own family.
21. I cry easily. This is not something I am proud of.
22. I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life anymore. I say I want to want to be a chef but now I don't even know.
23. My favorite board game is Scrabble.
24. It is now 1:10 a.m.
25. I'm not going to stop until I get somewhere. No matter what may get in my way,whether it be a person,a class,or myself,I'm going to do it.

Dear Mom.

When I come downstairs to talk to you,I want to talk to you. I don't want to listen to him ramble for the next half hour while you keep your head down. He has no idea what I'm going through or what I have gone through. He's been part of my daily life for four months. He has no idea what has happened to me at home,at school,and in my own mind. He has no idea what I know. He treats me like a four-year-old with no knowledge past clothes,music,and other things stereotypical of my age and gender. I am almost sixteen years old. I may not know everything about the world,but I'm not an idiot either. I know you have had to sacrifice a lot for me and Josh and I know you work really hard. I'm not as much of a selfish brat as he seems to think I am. He takes my words and twists them to fit his views on the subject and he makes me out to be nothing but a silly little girl who couldn't possibly know anything of any value. And like I said at the beginning,when I ask you something or tell you something,I really just want to talk to you.Can you please stop pushing everything onto him? I'm sorry I'm not perfect and my questions may seem silly but they aren't to me and my mind. I'm sorry I'm argumentative and have troubles with my own view of myself,but I'm asking you to help me with that and all that's happening is I'm getting frustrated because he talks about me as if what I say is nothing. Someday I may be able to talk to you about this for real but for now I'll have to settle for ranting to the internet and fitting the stereotype of the stupid,angsty teenager.